He ranks among the most prolific adult film performers, with documented credits for at least 573 films. Holmes or Johnny Wadd (after the lead character he portrayed in a series of related films), was an American pornographic film actor. We hear what his mother says and sympathise with his reactions. John Curtis Holmes (né Estes Aug March 13, 1988), better known as John C. Though not first person narrative, Crichton Smith uses detailed descriptions of John’s actions and thoughts to create empathy and understanding of his situation- we see and hear from John’s viewpoint- and grow angry and frustrated on his behalf. She knows just how to hurt him, using her subtle arrows that work away at his sensitivity or by screaming when he tries to ignore her. She accuses him of having his father’s family’s hereditary defects. She knows that with no confidence he will never leave she also realises he wants to please her and uses this mercilessly. His mother is bitter and vindictive - possibly her helplessness and/or fear of being abandoned has led to her efforts to undermine John.
He seems unable to change his life without her permission, which she refuses to give. Quote His boyish eyes would be smitten by a hellish despair, would lose all their hope, and cloud over with the pain of the mute, suffering animalĪs he devotes himself to domestic and caring chores, his mother criticises his personality, lack of ‘proper’ job, and lack of ambition.
